betrayal...

sometimes i would stumble and wonder
why does pandemonium always occurs when i actually give in to the needs of others?
is true happiness the achievement of giving?

its hard to accept reality sometime.
im not young anymore , i need to grow n learn
but who will be along the way to guide me?
i grew up not under the protection of my parents which gives me a feet forward to adapt
adaptation is neccesary for this society
i think...

betrayal is one thing that i never could understand
when you truly loved someone and gave in your all for that person
why does he or she still chooses to betray you? hurt you?
i never truly understand this point...
i didnt know whats the reason of all those who betrayed and denied me
when i actually gave so much for them

personally gain perharps?
jealousy perharps?
i never understood this...
why? they would hurt me
why? would they do this
why?